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Jamie Elizabeth (Sweeney) Bryant
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A candle was lit by Amy Cat
on November 7, 2022 6:03 PM
Hi there Jamie! Sorry we never got to meet, though we did kinda talk through your daughter a few times. I know you are looking down on her and are so proud of her. You are very missed and still very loved.
Hi there Jamie! Sorry we never got to meet, though we did kinda talk through your daughter a few times. I know you are looking down on her and are so proud of her. You are very missed and still very loved.
A candle was lit by Amy Cat
on November 7, 2022 6:03 PM
Hi there Jamie! Sorry we never got to meet, though we did kinda talk through your daughter a few times. I know you are looking down on her and are so proud of her. You are very missed and still very loved.
Hi there Jamie! Sorry we never got to meet, though we did kinda talk through your daughter a few times. I know you are looking down on her and are so proud of her. You are very missed and still very loved.
A candle was lit by Amy Cat
on November 7, 2022 6:00 PM
A candle was lit by Gracey
on November 7, 2022 1:57 PM
Happy Heavenly Birthday, Mom!
You would be 80 today! I miss you, but I've been doing a lot better, since a few months ago. I think I'm finally starting to be able to grieve you properly. I haven't been able to see a counselor, because I lost all my medical benefits, and have been struggling a bit with depression and anxiety. I haven't seen M&A and the kids for over a year and a half... I miss them too, but I guess they're just too busy to make time for me. We haven't even gotten together for Christmas 2021, yet, and it'll be Christmas 2022, sooner than I'm ready for. Parker turned 18 this year, and he started taking some college courses, on top of his High School classes. He says he's been going to the same building that Michael was in, when he went to HACC! He's been working at Stop & Go for a year or so, and he's driving the Blue Toyota, that was once Michael's. They got some sort of Hyundai, I think, for Cali to learn on, and she'll be driving before we know it, too! I'm so proud of them, Mom! You would be too! They're really growing up! I asked Cali if she had thought about any plans for college, and even as a sophomore, she's already thinking about getting into the field of Genetics! She's fascinated by pythons, and knows all sorts of things about them already. She said she's going to get a few as pets, but Amy said absolutely not, under their roof! So, when she moves out, I can't wait to go and visit her, and all her pretty snakes! As long as they're pets, I don't have a problem with them.
I can't believe it's been 5 years tomorrow, since you've been gone. It's been so hard, without your encouragement and support, but I've been surviving. I started making some headway on the house, and I've really made some progress over the last couple of months. I don't know what changed, but I've started drinking tea again, almost every day, and I think about our times together, sipping, talking, and laughing. I got a new flavor from Taylor's of Harrogate, called Sweet Rhubarb! I really think you'd like it! It tastes just like the Rhubarb & Custard candies that Alex sent me, when we were dating. I even got Jeff's sister, Mindy, hooked on it! They haven't been over recently, because they all caught Covid again. I was able to take them some Lipton Chicken Noodle Soup, the kind you used to make me, when I was sick, and a box of Gypsy Cold Care Tea. I just left it on their door, so I wouldn't catch Covid again. I want to see you again, but I'm not in any rush! I've just been cleaning out cabinets, and boxes, and getting rid of stuff as much as possible! You'd be so proud of me, for pushing through my pain, and current illnesses, to tidy this place up, and make it an actual HOME. It's starting to turn into the kind of place, I'm not embarrassed to invite my friends. They've never judged me on how it looks, but I really want to feel like I'm LIVING, here, and not just surviving. It's difficult, because I don't have any help, but I just keep doing a little bit more, every day. I'm hoping to collect on my Free Turkey, this month, and have a small Thanksgiving meal, for all my closest friends... Tim, Charlie, and the Watkins Siblings. They always help me out whenever they can, and I want to repay them with a delicious meal. It's the least I can do. I appreciate them so much! I've actually been cooking for myself again, too! I'm not just relying on Chef Mike(it's what the cool kids are calling the microwave these days), anymore. I just made some Stir Fry over Bean Threads, 2 nights ago, and before that, it was that yummy Stuffed Acorn Squash, that I used to make, when I was married. It was even better than I remembered it being! The prices of my quick meals have just gone up too much. Inflation has become a huge problem, since Joe Biden became the president, and I've heard on the news, that we may be looking at another recession. Hopefully, I can survive, on my small income, and come out on the other side.
I've been able to file my paperwork for government assistance programs again, since I had to spend everything you left me, on medical bills, prescriptions, and medical equipment. You didn't have a back up, and you made it just fine. I will too! I'm strong, like you! I know you meant well, leaving me half of everything, but it's been a real struggle, not having access to proper health benefits, these last 4 years. I knew as soon as I put that check in the bank, I would lose my benefits, and I told M&A as much, but they told me to do it anyway. The COA saw that deposit, and BAM! I lost my coverage. So, I had to use it to pay for my doctor's visits, and all that. At least I had it to use! Thank you for providing for me! Apache and I appreciate it so much! I had to pay for a couple of Vet Visits for him too, or I probably would have lost him. He's been doing a lot better.
My friend, Phoenix, bought me a new pair of rattie girls, 3 weeks ago, today, and they're adorable. They were rescued from a hoarding situation in the Harrisburg Area, and we got them at That Fish Place/That Pet Place. They're young, and they are becoming acclimated here. I already had all the supplies for them, since I only lost Izzy in June. They are all black, and both have standard top ears, and I wasn't sure I'd be able to tell them apart, but I saw a white angel kiss on Pearl's chest, when she stood up and greeted me, along the front of the cage. I could tell them apart by their personalities, but it's much easier, if they have at least ONE physical difference. They were about 7-8 weeks old when I got them, based on their size, so they're about 10-11 weeks old now. They were taking treats from my hand the second day I had them, and two days ago, I was able to actually full on pet them, for the first time. I'm patient, so I'll go at their pace. I don't want to spook them, and have to start all over with trust. The other girl's name is Onyx. She was more curious, and Pearl was more skittish when I got them. Now, Pearl, will step into my hand, and let me rub her tummy with my finger. She's bitten me a couple of times, but they haven't made me bleed. Onyx just puts her teeth on me to test me, to see if I'm food, but Pearl has actually flat out nipped me. She did break the skin, but I've been very patient with them. I think they're going to be wonderful little friends, once they trust me completely. They're already spoiled rotten! As they should be!
Anyway, I really think you'd be proud of everything I've been doing around here, the last few months. The trailer is really shaping up to be a nice place, I can actually call HOME. There's still a lot of clutter, and I'm working on it. Slow and steady wins the race. And since there's no time limit, I can go at my own pace. That's a good thing, since, like I said, I don't have any help. I look forward to inviting M&A and the kids to come visit, once I've gotten things a little more organized. Even if it's just to show them, that I'm not a hopeless case. I still haven't told them about my official Autism diagnosis, because I honestly don't think they will understand. You and I talked about it, before you passed, and we were pretty sure both you and I were High Functioning Neurodivergent. Well, now it's official. And you know what? The diagnosis doesn't change anything, but it explains a lot, about why I am, the way I am. I know it's not very nice, but I'm kind of glad I can tell A why I'm "too much" ... I still can't believe she said that to me. But, whatever. That's her problem, not mine. I'm kind of proud to be Autistic. It's not like there's anything wrong with me. It just means I process things differently, than "normal" people. What's normal, anyway? I still think Parker is, too... and he's one of the coolest people I know! He said he's not going to start his own Car Dealership, like he dreamed about when he was little, but I think he's going to be a very successful mechanic! He's already well on his way, with his experience at Stop & Go! And he'll never be out of work! You would be so proud of both of them, Mom! They are amazing kids! They both are still on the Cycling Team at school, they're both on the rifle team, and they both still love playing in the Band. Cali got an electric guitar for an early birthday present, and she's taking a class, and building herself an electric bass! Over the Summer, she worked for her Aunt Becky, and has gotten really good with building things, and painting. I asked her if she was going to start a band, and she said she might! Both of them have their interests, and are looking to further themselves with those interests. I couldn't be prouder of them! I love them so much! I wish I could see them more often, but we'll figure that out. It's not like they have to rely on M&A to drive them here, anymore. If M&A don't want to see me anymore, I guess they don't have to. But I will make myself available to Parker & Cali, if they do want to see me. I'm a little sad, that M&A don't really seem to care about me anymore, but that's their choice. I'm not going to force them to spend time with me, if they don't want to. Same with the kids. If they decide they don't want to spend time with me either, yes, I'll be sad, but I'm not going to make them spend time with me, if they'd rather be doing something else. I just hope they all know, I still love them, no matter what.
Well, I should probably stop writing you this novel, and get back to work on the house. It's not going to clean itself! I know! I've prayed it would, and no such luck! But I'm glad I'm feeling well enough to be doing what I am, around here. I usually work myself to the bone, for a couple of days, and then crash for a day, to recover. And then I start again. One day, soon, this place is going to look exactly how I want it to look, and I won't have boxes or totes all over the place. The dishes I want to display on the walls, will be up, and it will be beautiful in here. Thank goodness for all the people who came and worked on the house, when we lived in Elizabethtown! I learned so much from all of them!
I love you, Mom! I look forward to the day I get to Heaven, and can wrap my arms around you again. And I can't wait to share a cup of tea with you again! I realized that there is every kind of tea you can imagine in Heaven, and I can't wait to have a cuppa with you, and with Jesus! No worries... like I said, I'm not in any rush to get there! I know once I do, we'll have eternity together. I love you so much! Happy 80th Birthday!
Love, Gracey
Happy Heavenly Birthday, Mom!
You would be 80 today! I miss you, but I've been doing a lot better, since a few months ago. I think I'm finally starting to be able to grieve you properly. I haven't been able to see a counselor, because I lost all my medical benefits, and have been struggling a bit with depression and anxiety. I haven't seen M&A and the kids for over a year and a half... I miss them too, but I guess they're just too busy to make time for me. We haven't even gotten together for Christmas 2021, yet, and it'll be Christmas 2022, sooner than I'm ready for. Parker turned 18 this year, and he started taking some college courses, on top of his High School classes. He says he's been going to the same building that Michael was in, when he went to HACC! He's been working at Stop & Go for a year or so, and he's driving the Blue Toyota, that was once Michael's. They got some sort of Hyundai, I think, for Cali to learn on, and she'll be driving before we know it, too! I'm so proud of them, Mom! You would be too! They're really growing up! I asked Cali if she had thought about any plans for college, and even as a sophomore, she's already thinking about getting into the field of Genetics! She's fascinated by pythons, and knows all sorts of things about them already. She said she's going to get a few as pets, but Amy said absolutely not, under their roof! So, when she moves out, I can't wait to go and visit her, and all her pretty snakes! As long as they're pets, I don't have a problem with them.
I can't believe it's been 5 years tomorrow, since you've been gone. It's been so hard, without your encouragement and support, but I've been surviving. I started making some headway on the house, and I've really made some progress over the last couple of months. I don't know what changed, but I've started drinking tea again, almost every day, and I think about our times together, sipping, talking, and laughing. I got a new flavor from Taylor's of Harrogate, called Sweet Rhubarb! I really think you'd like it! It tastes just like the Rhubarb & Custard candies that Alex sent me, when we were dating. I even got Jeff's sister, Mindy, hooked on it! They haven't been over recently, because they all caught Covid again. I was able to take them some Lipton Chicken Noodle Soup, the kind you used to make me, when I was sick, and a box of Gypsy Cold Care Tea. I just left it on their door, so I wouldn't catch Covid again. I want to see you again, but I'm not in any rush! I've just been cleaning out cabinets, and boxes, and getting rid of stuff as much as possible! You'd be so proud of me, for pushing through my pain, and current illnesses, to tidy this place up, and make it an actual HOME. It's starting to turn into the kind of place, I'm not embarrassed to invite my friends. They've never judged me on how it looks, but I really want to feel like I'm LIVING, here, and not just surviving. It's difficult, because I don't have any help, but I just keep doing a little bit more, every day. I'm hoping to collect on my Free Turkey, this month, and have a small Thanksgiving meal, for all my closest friends... Tim, Charlie, and the Watkins Siblings. They always help me out whenever they can, and I want to repay them with a delicious meal. It's the least I can do. I appreciate them so much! I've actually been cooking for myself again, too! I'm not just relying on Chef Mike(it's what the cool kids are calling the microwave these days), anymore. I just made some Stir Fry over Bean Threads, 2 nights ago, and before that, it was that yummy Stuffed Acorn Squash, that I used to make, when I was married. It was even better than I remembered it being! The prices of my quick meals have just gone up too much. Inflation has become a huge problem, since Joe Biden became the president, and I've heard on the news, that we may be looking at another recession. Hopefully, I can survive, on my small income, and come out on the other side.
I've been able to file my paperwork for government assistance programs again, since I had to spend everything you left me, on medical bills, prescriptions, and medical equipment. You didn't have a back up, and you made it just fine. I will too! I'm strong, like you! I know you meant well, leaving me half of everything, but it's been a real struggle, not having access to proper health benefits, these last 4 years. I knew as soon as I put that check in the bank, I would lose my benefits, and I told M&A as much, but they told me to do it anyway. The COA saw that deposit, and BAM! I lost my coverage. So, I had to use it to pay for my doctor's visits, and all that. At least I had it to use! Thank you for providing for me! Apache and I appreciate it so much! I had to pay for a couple of Vet Visits for him too, or I probably would have lost him. He's been doing a lot better.
My friend, Phoenix, bought me a new pair of rattie girls, 3 weeks ago, today, and they're adorable. They were rescued from a hoarding situation in the Harrisburg Area, and we got them at That Fish Place/That Pet Place. They're young, and they are becoming acclimated here. I already had all the supplies for them, since I only lost Izzy in June. They are all black, and both have standard top ears, and I wasn't sure I'd be able to tell them apart, but I saw a white angel kiss on Pearl's chest, when she stood up and greeted me, along the front of the cage. I could tell them apart by their personalities, but it's much easier, if they have at least ONE physical difference. They were about 7-8 weeks old when I got them, based on their size, so they're about 10-11 weeks old now. They were taking treats from my hand the second day I had them, and two days ago, I was able to actually full on pet them, for the first time. I'm patient, so I'll go at their pace. I don't want to spook them, and have to start all over with trust. The other girl's name is Onyx. She was more curious, and Pearl was more skittish when I got them. Now, Pearl, will step into my hand, and let me rub her tummy with my finger. She's bitten me a couple of times, but they haven't made me bleed. Onyx just puts her teeth on me to test me, to see if I'm food, but Pearl has actually flat out nipped me. She did break the skin, but I've been very patient with them. I think they're going to be wonderful little friends, once they trust me completely. They're already spoiled rotten! As they should be!
Anyway, I really think you'd be proud of everything I've been doing around here, the last few months. The trailer is really shaping up to be a nice place, I can actually call HOME. There's still a lot of clutter, and I'm working on it. Slow and steady wins the race. And since there's no time limit, I can go at my own pace. That's a good thing, since, like I said, I don't have any help. I look forward to inviting M&A and the kids to come visit, once I've gotten things a little more organized. Even if it's just to show them, that I'm not a hopeless case. I still haven't told them about my official Autism diagnosis, because I honestly don't think they will understand. You and I talked about it, before you passed, and we were pretty sure both you and I were High Functioning Neurodivergent. Well, now it's official. And you know what? The diagnosis doesn't change anything, but it explains a lot, about why I am, the way I am. I know it's not very nice, but I'm kind of glad I can tell A why I'm "too much" ... I still can't believe she said that to me. But, whatever. That's her problem, not mine. I'm kind of proud to be Autistic. It's not like there's anything wrong with me. It just means I process things differently, than "normal" people. What's normal, anyway? I still think Parker is, too... and he's one of the coolest people I know! He said he's not going to start his own Car Dealership, like he dreamed about when he was little, but I think he's going to be a very successful mechanic! He's already well on his way, with his experience at Stop & Go! And he'll never be out of work! You would be so proud of both of them, Mom! They are amazing kids! They both are still on the Cycling Team at school, they're both on the rifle team, and they both still love playing in the Band. Cali got an electric guitar for an early birthday present, and she's taking a class, and building herself an electric bass! Over the Summer, she worked for her Aunt Becky, and has gotten really good with building things, and painting. I asked her if she was going to start a band, and she said she might! Both of them have their interests, and are looking to further themselves with those interests. I couldn't be prouder of them! I love them so much! I wish I could see them more often, but we'll figure that out. It's not like they have to rely on M&A to drive them here, anymore. If M&A don't want to see me anymore, I guess they don't have to. But I will make myself available to Parker & Cali, if they do want to see me. I'm a little sad, that M&A don't really seem to care about me anymore, but that's their choice. I'm not going to force them to spend time with me, if they don't want to. Same with the kids. If they decide they don't want to spend time with me either, yes, I'll be sad, but I'm not going to make them spend time with me, if they'd rather be doing something else. I just hope they all know, I still love them, no matter what.
Well, I should probably stop writing you this novel, and get back to work on the house. It's not going to clean itself! I know! I've prayed it would, and no such luck! But I'm glad I'm feeling well enough to be doing what I am, around here. I usually work myself to the bone, for a couple of days, and then crash for a day, to recover. And then I start again. One day, soon, this place is going to look exactly how I want it to look, and I won't have boxes or totes all over the place. The dishes I want to display on the walls, will be up, and it will be beautiful in here. Thank goodness for all the people who came and worked on the house, when we lived in Elizabethtown! I learned so much from all of them!
I love you, Mom! I look forward to the day I get to Heaven, and can wrap my arms around you again. And I can't wait to share a cup of tea with you again! I realized that there is every kind of tea you can imagine in Heaven, and I can't wait to have a cuppa with you, and with Jesus! No worries... like I said, I'm not in any rush to get there! I know once I do, we'll have eternity together. I love you so much! Happy 80th Birthday!
Love, Gracey
A candle was lit by Gracey
on November 8, 2021 4:56 AM
Hi Mom...
It's the wee hours of the morning, almost to the very minute the hospital called, four years ago, to tell us that your vitals were dropping and that we needed to come.
I spent your birthday alone, and I was thinking of you the whole day. Just thinking of all the birthdays that we spent together... there was even a Memory in my FB profile, from 10 years ago, describing how we spent your birthday. We even had a steak dinner and cake to celebrate! I miss those days. What I wouldn't give for one more birthday with you...
I miss you so very much. You were my anchor, and without you, I feel like I'm just floating aimlessly through life. When you were here, I felt like I had direction, and a purpose. Now, I struggle to do even the simplest things. I wish I could have gone to Heaven with you. I really hate being separated from you.
I wonder how you spent your birthday, in Heaven... was there a big feast? Was there a party with all of your friends... the ones you made here, that met you in Heaven, and the ones that you have met in Heaven, that have become your new companions? How big was the cake, to feed all of the Heavenly Host?
These are the weird thoughts that I have, early in the morning, between your birthday, and the anniversary of your passing. Apache is snuggled up to me, purring away, as I type. He really has been the best little companion for me, especially since you've been gone. I can talk to him, and lean on him, and he loves on me, when he senses I need some comforting. Yesterday/today is one of those times, and he knows it.
I need to TRY to get some sleep, so I can function on this chilly November Monday. I want to actually accomplish something, besides sleeping and eating, and playing games on my phone. I... want to do laundry, or some such chore that I've been neglecting. I've actually been keeping up after the dishes! You'd be so proud of me!
Happy Heavenly Birthday, Mom! I love you so much! I miss you terribly, and it hasn't gotten any easier with time. But I just keep remembering all the fun times we had together, and the long and wonderful conversations we shared. Those memories of you, are what keep me going.
Love you forever!
-Gracey
Hi Mom...
It's the wee hours of the morning, almost to the very minute the hospital called, four years ago, to tell us that your vitals were dropping and that we needed to come.
I spent your birthday alone, and I was thinking of you the whole day. Just thinking of all the birthdays that we spent together... there was even a Memory in my FB profile, from 10 years ago, describing how we spent your birthday. We even had a steak dinner and cake to celebrate! I miss those days. What I wouldn't give for one more birthday with you...
I miss you so very much. You were my anchor, and without you, I feel like I'm just floating aimlessly through life. When you were here, I felt like I had direction, and a purpose. Now, I struggle to do even the simplest things. I wish I could have gone to Heaven with you. I really hate being separated from you.
I wonder how you spent your birthday, in Heaven... was there a big feast? Was there a party with all of your friends... the ones you made here, that met you in Heaven, and the ones that you have met in Heaven, that have become your new companions? How big was the cake, to feed all of the Heavenly Host?
These are the weird thoughts that I have, early in the morning, between your birthday, and the anniversary of your passing. Apache is snuggled up to me, purring away, as I type. He really has been the best little companion for me, especially since you've been gone. I can talk to him, and lean on him, and he loves on me, when he senses I need some comforting. Yesterday/today is one of those times, and he knows it.
I need to TRY to get some sleep, so I can function on this chilly November Monday. I want to actually accomplish something, besides sleeping and eating, and playing games on my phone. I... want to do laundry, or some such chore that I've been neglecting. I've actually been keeping up after the dishes! You'd be so proud of me!
Happy Heavenly Birthday, Mom! I love you so much! I miss you terribly, and it hasn't gotten any easier with time. But I just keep remembering all the fun times we had together, and the long and wonderful conversations we shared. Those memories of you, are what keep me going.
Love you forever!
-Gracey
A candle was lit by Gracey
on October 1, 2021 7:50 PM
Hi Mom,
I've been really thinking about you a lot. My good friend Jeff, just lost his Mom the other day. It was very sudden, and unexpected. He was very close to her, like I was close with you. But with you, at least we had some warning... albeit a week... but Cindy just collapsed and was gone. Jeff never got to say goodbye. I feel so bad for him and his family.
Jeff has been a really good friend to me, and I'm trying to be a good friend to him as well. I wish there was more I could do for them, other than just pray.
Thankfully, Cindy was a believer, so she is there in Heaven with you. Maybe you two could meet, and be friends, and watch over us, when we're hanging out together. Maybe that sounds silly... I don't know.
I miss you Momma and I feel it more than ever right now, with having my best friend lose his Mom too. She was always very kind to me, and always thanked me for being such a good friend to Jeff. I feel so heartbroken... for their loss, as well as my own, even though it has been almost 4 years since you've been gone.
I miss you and I love you very much! Sending you so many hugs and kisses!
Love, Gracey
Hi Mom,
I've been really thinking about you a lot. My good friend Jeff, just lost his Mom the other day. It was very sudden, and unexpected. He was very close to her, like I was close with you. But with you, at least we had some warning... albeit a week... but Cindy just collapsed and was gone. Jeff never got to say goodbye. I feel so bad for him and his family.
Jeff has been a really good friend to me, and I'm trying to be a good friend to him as well. I wish there was more I could do for them, other than just pray.
Thankfully, Cindy was a believer, so she is there in Heaven with you. Maybe you two could meet, and be friends, and watch over us, when we're hanging out together. Maybe that sounds silly... I don't know.
I miss you Momma and I feel it more than ever right now, with having my best friend lose his Mom too. She was always very kind to me, and always thanked me for being such a good friend to Jeff. I feel so heartbroken... for their loss, as well as my own, even though it has been almost 4 years since you've been gone.
I miss you and I love you very much! Sending you so many hugs and kisses!
Love, Gracey
A candle was lit by Gracey
on November 7, 2020 3:03 PM
Happy Birthday Mom! I miss you and I love you! I am glad you missed 2020, though. It's been one fiasco after another. You're in a much better, much safer place. Happy 78th!
Happy Birthday Mom! I miss you and I love you! I am glad you missed 2020, though. It's been one fiasco after another. You're in a much better, much safer place. Happy 78th!
A candle was lit by Gracey
on August 26, 2020 6:20 AM
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on November 8, 2019 5:22 AM
2 years... 2 years since you've been gone. It still seems surreal. I still think about calling you, to tell you about my day, or to ask you about yours. It was hard not picking up the phone yesterday, to wish you a Happy Birthday. I hope you heard me wish you an extra happy day in Heaven.
People keep telling me it will get easier, as time goes by, but the longer it's been, the harder it feels. I was brave, 2 years ago. I let you go. I told you it was ok. That I'd be ok. I lied... I've given up since you went away. I barely get out of bed. Most people move on with their lives, after a loved one passes on. I just feel stuck. I don't want to live in a world where you're not. I guess that's selfish.
I found a keychain that describes exactly how I feel... it says, "I used to be her angel. Now she's mine. Mom" I miss you so much! I want you to be happy, and healthy, which you are, in Heaven. But I also want you to be here, with us, still. Life keeps moving forward, but not for me. I just miss you too much. I've been to a counselor, but she's no help. I still feel as though I haven't properly grieved you. I don't know how. I don't even know where to start. I keep dreaming about you, and it just makes things that much harder. I just feel disconnected somehow. Like you were the only thing keeping me going each day. You were my only reason for living. Now all I do is feed the cat...
I miss you, Mom. It's not hard to say. But it's heartwrenching to feel. I don't know how people keep going after they lose their mothers. I just know that I haven't. I'm stuck in a holding pattern. I'm overwhelmed, and I just don't know how to live anymore. I just force myself to wake up every day. That's mostly what my days are like. Sometimes I go out with my "new friends"... they get me out of the house for a few hours, once in a while. They help me forget for a little while. But then I come home again, and I look around, and I'm stuck all over again. I feel like a Mouse in a glue trap...
I'm sorry I'm so self centered and selfish. You raised me better than this. I just... don't know where to go from here. I miss you. And I don't know how to keep going without you. I love you, Mom. Every day. Forever. Thanks for being my angel.
2 years... 2 years since you've been gone. It still seems surreal. I still think about calling you, to tell you about my day, or to ask you about yours. It was hard not picking up the phone yesterday, to wish you a Happy Birthday. I hope you heard me wish you an extra happy day in Heaven.
People keep telling me it will get easier, as time goes by, but the longer it's been, the harder it feels. I was brave, 2 years ago. I let you go. I told you it was ok. That I'd be ok. I lied... I've given up since you went away. I barely get out of bed. Most people move on with their lives, after a loved one passes on. I just feel stuck. I don't want to live in a world where you're not. I guess that's selfish.
I found a keychain that describes exactly how I feel... it says, "I used to be her angel. Now she's mine. Mom" I miss you so much! I want you to be happy, and healthy, which you are, in Heaven. But I also want you to be here, with us, still. Life keeps moving forward, but not for me. I just miss you too much. I've been to a counselor, but she's no help. I still feel as though I haven't properly grieved you. I don't know how. I don't even know where to start. I keep dreaming about you, and it just makes things that much harder. I just feel disconnected somehow. Like you were the only thing keeping me going each day. You were my only reason for living. Now all I do is feed the cat...
I miss you, Mom. It's not hard to say. But it's heartwrenching to feel. I don't know how people keep going after they lose their mothers. I just know that I haven't. I'm stuck in a holding pattern. I'm overwhelmed, and I just don't know how to live anymore. I just force myself to wake up every day. That's mostly what my days are like. Sometimes I go out with my "new friends"... they get me out of the house for a few hours, once in a while. They help me forget for a little while. But then I come home again, and I look around, and I'm stuck all over again. I feel like a Mouse in a glue trap...
I'm sorry I'm so self centered and selfish. You raised me better than this. I just... don't know where to go from here. I miss you. And I don't know how to keep going without you. I love you, Mom. Every day. Forever. Thanks for being my angel.
A candle was lit by Gracey
on September 13, 2018 9:58 PM
A candle was lit by Gracey
on May 9, 2018 2:11 AM
It has been 6 months... I feel numb... there are days that I can't function, because all I want to do, is call you up, and talk, and hear your voice. I miss you, so much, Mom... my heart aches, and yet I feel so hollow inside. Thanksgiving came and went. Then Christmas and New Year's. Superbowl Sunday was the hardest, I think, because we always spent it together, when we could. I just laid here, and cried, all day. I missed watching the Kitten Bowl on Hallmark, with you. And I missed seeing if there was a new Energizer Bunny commercial, to laugh at, with you... it's the little things I miss... Valentine's Day came and went, and Easter... and then Michael's & Amy's birthdays... now Mother's Day is almost here, and you're not here, for me to give you a card, or a gift... I know that you never cared about the presents... all you cared about was my presence... and I tried my hardest to always spend Mother's Day with you, when I could. You were the best Mother, a daughter could ever want or have. I wish you were still here with me. I miss you so very much. I keep listening to the old voicemails on my phone, just so I can hear your voice. All I want to do, is be with you, on Sunday... Mother's Day seems so pointless without you...
Mom, you were my cheerleader, my support, but most importantly, my best friend. I feel so lost without you. The house is nearly ready to be sold... it feels so empty, anyway... Home is where the heart is... well, mine is broken without you. My heart is shattered on the floor. I would give anything to spend one more day with you. I love you, Mommy...
It has been 6 months... I feel numb... there are days that I can't function, because all I want to do, is call you up, and talk, and hear your voice. I miss you, so much, Mom... my heart aches, and yet I feel so hollow inside. Thanksgiving came and went. Then Christmas and New Year's. Superbowl Sunday was the hardest, I think, because we always spent it together, when we could. I just laid here, and cried, all day. I missed watching the Kitten Bowl on Hallmark, with you. And I missed seeing if there was a new Energizer Bunny commercial, to laugh at, with you... it's the little things I miss... Valentine's Day came and went, and Easter... and then Michael's & Amy's birthdays... now Mother's Day is almost here, and you're not here, for me to give you a card, or a gift... I know that you never cared about the presents... all you cared about was my presence... and I tried my hardest to always spend Mother's Day with you, when I could. You were the best Mother, a daughter could ever want or have. I wish you were still here with me. I miss you so very much. I keep listening to the old voicemails on my phone, just so I can hear your voice. All I want to do, is be with you, on Sunday... Mother's Day seems so pointless without you...
Mom, you were my cheerleader, my support, but most importantly, my best friend. I feel so lost without you. The house is nearly ready to be sold... it feels so empty, anyway... Home is where the heart is... well, mine is broken without you. My heart is shattered on the floor. I would give anything to spend one more day with you. I love you, Mommy...
A candle was lit by Gracey
on May 9, 2018 1:52 AM
A candle was lit by Gracey
on December 7, 2017 12:52 PM
I miss you, Mom... my heart aches without you, here. I wish we had had more time together, the last few months. I wish I had hugged you more. I wish my tears would stop falling, so hard, and so often. I should be happy, and rejoicing that you are with Jesus, but I'm selfish, and I wish you were still here, with me, to tell me that everything will be ok, and that everything will work out, in the end. I love you so much. I know you wouldn't want me to be sad, and dwell on your absence. But it's so hard to pick up my phone, and not be able to call you, whenever I want to. The phone number we had all my life, is gone now, but I'll bever, ever forget it, and the many, many times I called, to talk to you, and hear your laugh, and your words of wisdom. I miss that so very much. I miss YOU, so very much... I will never stop loving you, Mom. You made me who I am, today. And I am eternally grateful to you. 💖💕
I miss you, Mom... my heart aches without you, here. I wish we had had more time together, the last few months. I wish I had hugged you more. I wish my tears would stop falling, so hard, and so often. I should be happy, and rejoicing that you are with Jesus, but I'm selfish, and I wish you were still here, with me, to tell me that everything will be ok, and that everything will work out, in the end. I love you so much. I know you wouldn't want me to be sad, and dwell on your absence. But it's so hard to pick up my phone, and not be able to call you, whenever I want to. The phone number we had all my life, is gone now, but I'll bever, ever forget it, and the many, many times I called, to talk to you, and hear your laugh, and your words of wisdom. I miss that so very much. I miss YOU, so very much... I will never stop loving you, Mom. You made me who I am, today. And I am eternally grateful to you. 💖💕
A candle was lit by Gracey
on December 7, 2017 12:41 PM
Message from Jen MonroeJohnson
December 4, 2017 9:40 PM
Michael and Grace,
I am so so sorry for your loss!!! I wish I had found out sooner. Much love to you both!!
I am so so sorry for your loss!!! I wish I had found out sooner. Much love to you both!!
A candle was lit by Jennifer MonroeJohnson
on December 4, 2017 9:38 PM
A candle was lit by Scott Kaylor
on November 15, 2017 10:02 AM
A candle was lit by The Romanoff Family
on November 14, 2017 9:52 AM
A candle was lit by Deb Klim Chelius
on November 13, 2017 7:16 PM
A candle was lit by Jack & Judi More
on November 12, 2017 6:56 PM
Message from Joe Hyatt
November 12, 2017 3:44 PM
I got to know Jamie, Michael and Grace over 30 years ago when I was on staff at Elizabethtown BIC. During my time at the church Jamie and I had quite a few opportunities to connect. While I can know longer remember the particulars of those conversations I very much know how much I appreciated and how much I grew from those times together. I am saddened by her passing even as I know she is rejoicing in the presence of the Lord. I offer my condolences and prayers for Michael, Grace and your families.
Message from Cindy Goehring
November 11, 2017 7:14 PM
There are no words that will provide comfort on the loss of your precious mother. I know. I remember stories of when you spent time with her and how much fun you had together. She was a beautiful woman and will always be beautiful...
A candle was lit by Cindy Goehring, with love
on November 11, 2017 7:09 PM
A candle was lit by Amy Cat
on November 11, 2017 4:45 AM
May Jamie rest in peace in the paradise above. May her memory live on and continue to touch lives as she touched them here on earth. Blessings and condolences to the family.
May Jamie rest in peace in the paradise above. May her memory live on and continue to touch lives as she touched them here on earth. Blessings and condolences to the family.
A candle was lit by Amy Cat
on November 11, 2017 4:42 AM
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